February 2, 2023: Reunion with My Past Self

Today I found my 12-year-ago self here, in this blog, where I carefully catalogued who I was in that moment of time - those moments of time to be more accurate. What a remarkable chance to revisit and have a bit of reunion. I will start tonight with an Evening Practice.

march 24 930 am

march 24 930 am, a photo by juliejordanscott on Flickr.

unfinished june 21

drumstick plays

relentless upon

the space between

my eyebrows

right above my nose,

I feel the triple

wetness

threaten to drip

bankrupt tears

spilling unwillingly

why does this transparent portrait

of collaborative love cause this

uncodified ache coursing through

my center from brow to belly to

the cracks in my heels

blood barren, dry, emptied

dust covered all remain

unspoken for language will not

can not know how to form around

this mammoth pilgrimage of

oppressive heat bars me from

dust covered box somewhere

out there in the great unknown

does it…

does it or

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unfinished june 21

drumstick plays

relentless upon

the space between

my eyebrows

right above my nose,

I feel the triple

wetness

threaten to drip

bankrupt tears

spilling unwillingly

why does this transparent portrait

of collaborative love cause this

uncodified ache coursing through

my center from brow to belly to

the cracks in my heels

blood barren, dry, emptied

dust covered all remain

unspoken for language will not

can not know how to form around

this mammoth pilgrimage of

oppressive heat bars me from

dust covered box somewhere

out there in the great unknown

does it…

does it or

See more progress on: Try to write at least one poem per day for one month: June

One Word Journal: June 21, 2011

invisible

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Gratitude List: June 4, 2011

I am grateful for my friend, Mel, whose birthday is today.

I am grateful for first friday, which was such a good time.

I am grateful for the trip to the East Bay, had such a blast there.

I am grateful for the Poetry Walk in Berkeley. Fantastic.

I am grateful for poets, all across the world, who write and perform with passion that overflows amongst us.

I am grateful.

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June 4: Remembering May 31 ~ for Chas and the others in Berkeley

So tell me
how unextraordinary
it is to step into
the repellent stench
of unsalvaged heart
work

try to break it to me
anything but gently
as the worn out cliches
bumble their ways out
of mouths doing a dueling
banjos of poetic whining
about how my life my experiences
my whatever the fuck is up next
in this self indulgent word orgy
is ten times worse, at least,
than yours

What will it be next?
The lack of sexual climax – ever?
The curly hair you wear as a
result of your Semetic forebears
smashed into a cattle car smiling?
alcoholism smashed into a
swallowed gold fish metaphor
I hear you, poetic friends
and I love you for your words
but I ask you how does this
compare

With the rage I feel when I
shout from deep in my gut
at Fabian, to put down his
flashy smart phone and
never and I mean never ever
again have the audacity
to strip me from my rightful
position as Mayor of Dagnys

Who does he think he is,
stealing my rightful place on
the throne of Zambien Zing
and Vanilla latte’s or oh,
those tasty chocolate scones
and toasted just right sesame bagels

I worked long and hard for this
job and if you don’t dismantle
your foursquare connection things
will get ugly. I may have taken the
mayor reins of a random BART Station
in Oakland and Cupcake Corner and
the Coalinga Cows but it
makes my stagnant welt of
cancerous boils fester with
poisonous wrath to know that
you, Fabian, besides being blessed
by your unthinking parents at birth
with a completely wretched name
you had to log on and tear away
my favorite claim to anything
worthwhile and meaningful
you have done me wrong
and I will not
can not
shall not
bear witness never
will
forgive
you
this
Fabian

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Last night I set up my Word-Love Goodies at First Friday

and had a blast. My Poetry Fire was like a magnet…

See more progress on: Resolve to have a great 2011 Spring by doing at least one new and fulfilling thing in April, May and June

Grateful on Monday, May 30, 2011

Today I am grateful for…

1. The fun, carefree time with Emma and Samuel today. It was so balanced in fun, day-to-day chores, errands, reading, creating… perfect.

2. My time with Josh, Jennie and Emma yesterday.

3. Remembering how fun no-purpose flirting can be.

4. Strike for STAGE DOOR was easy and even a teensy bit fun.

5. Fresh strawberries

bonus: working out on Samuel’s wii fit (which makes him so happy!)

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From Virginia Woolf: A Haunted House, a Short Story

“Oh, is this your buried treasure? The light in the heart.”

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One Word Journal, May 27, 2011

off-kilter

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One sentence journal for May 27, 2011

My creative spirit continues to take the reins in my life and hey, for now I am not fighting it at all.

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Today, May 28, I am grateful for...

a fun time at the cast party for Stage Door last night

a good night’s sleep where the duvet was a necessary part of it

Katherine’s willingness to log in on foursquare – so I know where she is while she is visiting Davis

the high number of friends I have who really care about me ~

forgiveness

the used bookstore final sale today… and the treasures I always manage to find at thrift stores and the Re-Store and every place else I go to find things to upcycle, etc….

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One Word Journal - May 19, 2010

blanda

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May 19 One Sentence Journal

I feel like my spirit is being whittled down.

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On Friday Morning, I am grateful.....

I am grateful for my writing porch

I am grateful for my cup of Dunkin Donuts coffee

I am grateful for the plentiful images to write, to ponder, to dissect constantly appearing right in front of me

I am grateful for voices

I am grateful for open spans of time to create

I am grateful Monday will be here soon

I am grateful

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On Thursday Morning I am grateful....

for the movie Poetry directed by Lee Chang-dong…

for Emma’s willingness to watch a subtitled film only to discover (as I told her) soon, you will forget you are reading subtitles. She did.

for very cool cemeteries in tucked away places

for laughter over unusual things

for passionate living, no matter what

for expansion

for you

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May 15, 2011

My voice turned into a squeak when I saw the three baby skunk tails Samuel discovered across the street from the mallards at Hart Park.

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May 15, 2011

My voice turned into a squeak when I saw the three baby skunk tails Samuel discovered across the street from the mallards at Hart Park.

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Gratitude on May 16, 2011

I am grateful for…

1. the surprise of late Spring rainy mornings

2. productive rehearsals filled with people I enjoy

3. places to go that fill me with joy

4. silly photography

5. sentient sunsets

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